missing closeness

do I offer myself too easy?
I wonder if i ever told you that I was scared...
I find it cold
a coldwar without blood to clean
nothing to proof a victory or defeat
a long lost battle
repeatet over and over again
in the distance of our imaginary surfaces

no friction
no borders
no warning of pain

I am always a year behind
in discovering my life
it was in Volkspark Friedrichshain
I remember your browngolden hands
on my silverpale skin
ghosts of flying waterdrops singing in the air
did I ever told you that i was scared?
dancing with you here
in love
im loosing everything in memorised presens
reversed heart beat beat beat beat me up
and down
in samples of missing closeness

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